Remember GOODBYE it doesn't mean FOREVER 12:14 AM

jinjja seulpeuda... =(

so much chaos can't even get on track, bad news about 2PM is everywhere.....
Out of all the good they had we keep track of the bad. =(

why this have to end like this?

even now, whenever i saw some old clips of them on tV or in the net i smiled bitterly....

I had grownt too attached to them, i started to be a KPOP fan because of Bi(Rain) but just an ordinary fan, watching music programs and enjoyed listening to it. But when 2PM debuted they got my interest, like love at first sight, kekeke... I found them different from other KPOP idols, their acrobatic talent is awesome and after appearing on the variety shows, i saw how close they are & i was so impressed. I bought or rather i order a custom made tarpouline with a human size photo of them and hang it on the east side of my bed and when there next song was released i bought another tarpouline w/ their photos like the album cover & hang it on the west side of my bed. While on the north i put a huge photo of Jay. My aunt keep nagging me that i was crazy for doing that. Yeah, i'm staying w/ my Aunt here in Middle East, my family is in the Phil. Right now my room wall is plain white.... =(

i even introduced 2PM to my friends & classmates here. They always laugh at me for being a die hard fan, they said why korean idols? "American band are way better than they are" and i will proudly answer them; "Yeah, i know, but you know what, one of them is AMERICAN but a full blooded Korean, haha....
Because of my stubborness and eagerness, they started watching 2PM on TV and on the Internet. Few months later, we became a die hard fan of 2PM. There album is not available here so i usually ask my Aunt in Korea to bought us a copy & send it to us.

During the A&A promotion i visited Korea, my friends reminded me to check 2PM & ask for their signature. On the plane i was so excited not just because i'm going to Korea but the fact that i might see 2PM face to face my heart is over flowing w/ joy. I beg my cousin to accompany me to the places where 2PM suppose to appear, well, i begged because she is not a fan, she's a Suju fan. When we got there, i was so high! as if i already reached the heaven, lol... My cousin told me to hurry up and fall in line but i couldn't move, i just kept looking at their cute faces for 20mins. Then, when i got my senses back, i couldn't walk either, i saw those teenagers line -up and i'm so embarrased. I felt so shy because i felt that i'm too old to join them =( I'm a noona to 2PM, a year older than Jay). I heard a deep sigh from my cousin and said "Aigoo, michigetda, let's go home if you don't want to", so we headed home, i'm so sad... T_T

Three days before my scheduled flight to Qatar while i'm watching TV my cousin came in from school and told me that there's an event where 2Pm will be appearing. She said, it will be my last chance to get their signature, so i better go. We went to the said place, i gathered all my strength, finally got all their signatures and even shake hands w/ them. But the best was a hug from my fav. member. I asked him if i can have a hug from him, he agreed w/ a smile, that bright smile never been erased in my head and heart. Guess to whom i got that hug? It was from the BEST LEADJA EVER! He's scent is amazing,,, haha.. even it was just for a split of seconds, it feels like hours, i'm so honored.The rest is history......


When the news of Jay's departure hit the media, i was shocked & dumbfounded, my friends keep sending SMS to me asking if i heard the news and if i'm okey. They know how much i cared for 2PM, specially Jay. I cussed Netizens for doing that to him but i never cried because i still believe that he will come back when the issue died down.

We participated on every petition to bring Jay back to 2PM, sent pics and post-its. After almost 5months of trying hard we finally sense his come back, we started to go shopping stuffs for 2PM,Oh, if you will nag us and tell us to better donate to the needy people we already did, in Haiti, Phil and Africa... i'm set to visit Korea again on April. My friends are so envious of me, they can't come with me even if they have enough money for air fair, their parents didn't allow them to travel, they gave me extra money for taxi fair cause they want me to follow 2PM on every event, which is nearly like stalking them, also for buying the album 1:59 and the next album, we are really positive that Jay is set to comeback before the next album released so it will be okey to buy 1:59, we're pro-boycott.

We are nearly going to fill a jumbo cargo box with different things like shirts, pants, shoes, cups etc., all for the 7members of 2PM. My friends asked me to deliver it personally to the boys and i just laughed and told them i'll figure it out how to give it to them when i'm in there. We don't belong on any 2PM fan communities, that's why we don't know how to deliver it to them. While doing our last shopping spree one of my friend texted me and said that JYPE released an official statement about JAY's contract termination. We went home quickly and visit every fan sites, we are all devastated, no one dared to speak.

The next day negative side of 6PM revealed to the public, what caught one of my friend's attention is the photo of trashed gifts from fans to 2PM. She goes "At least our gifts won't be trashed, all are pretty expensive" and smiled bitterly. One of the Unnie friend, started taking out all the gifts we bought from the box and said "i'll take the things i bought, better give it to my brother" laughing so loud with an angry face.

No one cried, even we are hurting, even the situation is getting worst.

While we are hanging out in an Unnie's house Star King is on air, we don't know why but the episode of it is featuring all 2PM guesting on the show compiled all at once. Well, most of the show, drama or videos showed in KOREA TV are old clips. A younger friend told me to change the channel to KBS WORLD but i didn't listen to her, i sigh deeply and said "GOD, i miss this guys, why they change?" where is the old 2PM go? Then we all teared up until it became intensed cry. YES, we are bunches of fools crying for someone we don't know personally and doesn't even know we exist. But that's what our heart feels, we had grown to much attached to 2PM. They became part of our daily routines.

All of us, turn our backs to 2PM. We can never accept 6PM or even just Jay. 2PM for us is seven. I chose to stay on this blog not as a 2PM fan but just a plain blogger. I will just watch them from afar and leave everything behind. Not doing anything....... until my heart find it's way... I HATED ALL OF THEM for my own reasons....but I NOW FORGIVE THEM however, it doesn't mean i'm already healed.

SOMETIMES THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT UNSAID...
LETTING GO IS JUST ANOTHER WAY TO SAY I'LL ALWAYS LOVE THEM...
REMEMBER GOODBYE IT DOESN'T MEAN FOREVER....

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VOICE WITHIN --- from Anika of UAE

Everyday, situation of 2PM is getting uglier & out of control since the conference. WHY DO WE NEED TO DO THE SAME THING THEY DID TO JAY? Why do we need to avenge Jay? Why are we so mad to 6PM(that's how others called them)? it's because they BETRAYED Jay, right? Then what are we doing now? isn't it also being a betrayer to them? Aren't we just showing them how rude we are just like how rude they are to Jay?

I read all the articles about this 2PM nightmares from different sites and believe me i don't know where i stand anymore, i'm so confused. So stupid to even care, i mean yeah i'm a fan but they doesn't even know my existence, but i can't help it. From 2PM to 6PM and now 5PM,,, so frustrating.... Does anyone still knows the real meaning of a fan? or does it have an specific meaning?

My point is,,, ENOUGH is ENOUGH, WHAT DONE is DONE... We don't have any DELETE or UNDO buttons in real life. JUST let it go, You hate 6PM? then stay away from them. You hate Jay? Then stay away from him. I can't even breath whenever there's another photos or videos of 6PM being spread on the internet. Don't you said before that YOU LOVE 2PM? The can you please explain what kind of love is that? LOVE KNOWS HOW TO FORGIVE... JUST LET THEM BE. TIME TO MOVE ON. You don't want to support them? then don't. No one is forcing you to do so. Trust me they have had enough punishment for what they have done. LET's ALL TAKE A BREAK AND CHILL, SHALL WE?(FYI- i'm a Jay bias)

I learnt from Jay that staying quite is what makes you more respectable. Smiling and saying it's okey even you're hurting is much lighter to bear than hating someone. And when my heart aches feeling betrayed by 6PM, his image smiling so bright just pop-up in my mind, then i thought of how hard it was for him but still standing strong, then why can't i ? WHOEVER YOU CHOSE TO SUPPORT, do the best you can, so this kind of things won't happen again...

AGAIN LET's ALL MOVE ON and LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND....
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NOTE: we are still & will continue accepting messages for 6PM, 5PM, 1:59 & Jay=2PM as we decided to keep our mailbox for our readers. ashric_nichel@yahoo.com

Josephine of UK 7:51 PM

Mon, March 1, 2010 5:48:55 AM

Hi...thanks you for giving me the last chance to said something about 2pm. at first i didnt know about them until i heard my boyfriend said that they are a good boyband and their song its nice. He gave me their song which is again and again, when i heard it i told myself that they are good and i become 2pm's fans. But i dont think now i will said the same thing like what i used to said before and i dont think i will become 2pm's fans anymore after i heard what happened to Jay and how the others members just turn their back againts him. i know he did something wrong but i believe anybody in this world deserve a second chance in their live.

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He did apologize to whatever he did before and i just could not believe how the other member just said that they hate him. well somehow when it comes to money or popularity people will become blind but to be honest with you money and popularity wont last long but friendship and botherhood will last forever and i believe that. well i believe something happened for the reason and this is for jay : i believe whatever you did before you have a good reason why u did it and i believe u did not mean it.

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My mom always said to me: dont worry everything will be alright as long as you believe in Him and i do trust whatever she told me because it always true when im down i always remember one things there will be always someone who will never and ever turn His back againts me and its Jesus. I could feel how you feel because it happened to me before and this is happened 4 years ago when i was still 16 at that time. When i was 16 years old my parents send me to overseas to continue my study, i was there alone and everything was new for me, i was crying almost everyday back then and i could not told my parents about this because i did not want them to worried about me.

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So, Jay i know how u feel and i do believe that u will become famous more than u are used to be, keep the fire in your heart and do all the things passionately, believe in yourself and i am sure that you will make it. Dont let the word of deceivement brings you down, stand still and live it high. For Jesus will always look after this people. I wish you have a blessed life, my mom once told me that for everything that you sow in tears, you will reap in joy and i also believe in karma. One day, all your hard work will pay eventually and whatever people do bad to you, they will have something in return. for man without vision will parish, i believe that you have a big dream, i know it will be though and there are gonna be though seasons ahead but no matter what strive it with perfection and believe yourself. Last but not least, i would like to say, wish you the best of luck and keep moving on. God Bless You and He always be there for you :)

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to the writer thanks you for giving me a chance to write down about how i feel and just keep my name as josephine, i came from united kingdom....

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Josephine,

Thanks for sending us your letter, let's all hope for a brighter future for everyone.. ^^

Admins
ashric_nichel@yahoo.com

Letter from Yuuki of Philippines 10:38 AM

Sun, February 28, 2010 7:18:07 PM

Hello... thank you for giving me a chance to give my last respects to a group I loved dearly. Please call me Yuuki, a Philippine Hottest who loved and supported Lee JunHo who was then just a struggling Bi Rain lookalike. Even then, I saw JunHo as someone with the ambition to prove himself and I got ready to support him and his brothers while they reach the top. I admired 2PM not because of their beastly image, not just because they perform well. I loved them because they were themselves and also because their love for each other radiates through the shows, interviews and even their songs.

When the Myspace controversy broke out, I was worried. Half because I liked Jaebum and half because I was worried for the group as a whole. I knew how much they loved each other and I was worried that this could affect them. My fears was soon realized and soon after things started to go for the worse. I was one of those who cried, not caring if other people called me pathetic for crying over people who doesn't even know who I am. I am a Hottest, I have a right to cry, that's what I said. Still I did not lose hope, I thought that I will wait for things to get better. As soon as the other six remained true to their brotherhood, I won't give up. Then I saw the changes in some of the members, I saw it but turned a blind eye. I thought that it was for the better and I was thinking that it was their way to show the Hottests that they were okay. I was wrong based on everything that I have read so far. I know some would tell me that I do not know them personally to say things but I trust the sources where I read this from and there's never smoke without any kind of fire. I now proved that idols really are just average people too... ambitions and personal dreams could get bigger than brotherhood and love. At least I wasn't wrong when I supported this group, they do have reaaaly big dreams. It's just frustrating that they had to prove it this way.

Just to clear things, I am just not giving up on 2PM because JYPE refused to bring back Park Jaebum. It's a reason but not what triggered me to leave. It was devastating to see the changes on the members plus I had always disliked people who betrays other people just to get on top. I hate that the most. Plus its hard to protect and support a group who couldn't even protect and support each other. If they were able to do it to a former member (and their leader), they can easily do it to other people. With this I close my farewells to my formerly loved kpop group. Everything ended in a not so good way but I hope for everyone's happiness. They moved on pretty easily so I guess I should too. It was fun being a part of the Hottests and I never regretted supporting 2PM when they were 7. =)

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To the writer, you have my gratitude for letting me vent my frustrations. Please leave my name as Yuuki and I came from the Philippines.

Yuuki,

thanks for sending us your letter and we respect your decision. Him Nae chingu, aja, aja, fighting!!! ^_^

Admins.

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